1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs which start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions.

I got the 'G' - let's see... that's a hard one! as in REAL hard!

Golden Locks - Bim Sherman
Glimpse of Home - Chandelier
Glösöli - Sigur Rós
Games without Frontiers - Peter Gabriel
Guide Vocal - Genesis

No - not THAT easy. 'kay, I could've gone through ALL my CDs, but after finding just ONE song with 'G' on my mp3-player, I couldn't be bothered to go upstairs just once again to check on the other CDs...
:)

if this hasn't been the most moving thing i ever saw...

just finished the finale.

can't be bothered to put anything under a cut now.

... that's what Mary McDonnell said to me during the photosession...

'cause the photographer was ready, looked at us and said 'oh nooooo! your HAIR!!'. And I put my hair back behind the shoulders and Mary was fuddling with her hair, too, and I said, oh, I think he meant MINE, and then she said the a.m. sentence...

Oooooh! She was SO NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That session went like 'Next one! - Next one! - Next one', but she greeted everyone and had some nice words for everyone...
and she's TINY!!

And her panel was great and for the first time in my life I stepped to the microphone and asked her a question.

Don't have any pics yet, for I used Ulis camera which still works WITH.FILMROLL. For my digicam is too old to work sufficiently for events like that.

Okay, that was my fedcon-experience 2008, I just went yesterday, for I live nearby now and that will do.

And that I'm having a sore throat and that I hardly slept at all last nite just doesn't matter for I've seen Mary.

And the pic with Mary and me will hopefully get here by mail AND by snailmail, too, for I can't pick it up today. Which seemed not to be a problem for the guy selling the tix for the session but for the lady at the info-desk who rolled her eyes and took my adress on some postIt-sticker which I'm not sure where it will be after the con. But I'll write to those guys.

Hach!!!!!!!

Cool - I'm always ready for gadgets like this:




( Who comments the most on this journal? )

a. list seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself
b. tag seven people to do the same
c. do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it"



Gaaaah!!!!

7 as in SEVEN????

OH.MY.GOD.

Seven.

Seven things about myself.

Okaaayyyy...

1. I'm not a neat person. Neat as in 'knows how to keep her place clean and tidy'. Not at all. Where I am, there's chaos.

2. I don't like meat. Well - I DO eat sausages and burgers but when it comes to meat that actually TASTES like meat or has the consistence of meat - no way.

3. I'm a very insecure person although hardly anyone notices it. due to my past it's very easy to make me think that I'm insufficient.

4. I don't like sports. I like to watch Iceskating (as in figure skating) as well as Turmspringen, I'd even watch sychronized swimming (or whatever it'd be called in english), all of them being sports hardly shown on tv for ppl think them to be just ridiculous. okay...

5. There are many things EVERYONE but me seems to just love.

6. I hate seafood. When on business-tours in italy i hated it when i had to explain that i eat neither meat nor seafood. when worse came to worse, the chef would say 'buuut when IIIII prepare fiiiishe, you will just looooovääää the fiiiishe. most people when comme heeerreee they hateee fishe but when eata mya fishe they looooove fishe...' - and then he would bring me fiiiishee and I hate it.
Next time (although there won't be more such trips) I'd pretend to be a vegetarian allergic to seafood. only then they'll give you a huge pile of veggies that don't taste good. meh.

7. I'm not a morning person, either *waves to angel*. in the office they knew not to talk to me before i finished my coffee. that was nice...

Okay - I'll just tag whoever wants to do this...

:)

So my b-day is approaching (well, it's not before Nov, but still) and we're planning on spending some time in some hotel at some beach. From Hannover it was easy, you went to the Nord- or Ostsee. From here you have a whole bunch of NEW things to discover.

So since we had a great time in Amsterdam about 2 yrs ago we now thought of going to the dutch coast. And I'm completely... überfordert! The last time I spent a vacation in Holland I was about 3 years old. I spent one day at some beach with sister and nephew 2 yrs ago, but that was just one day...

So - you guys can most possibly tell me where to go, can't you? How about Scheveningen? Which belongs to Den Haag I presume? We're thinking about staying in a hotel at the beach...

Help please...

oh, and another thingie:

You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

Okay. So I'm still unemployed, which I actually enjoy. This made me get to know my new neighbors better. they're mostly stay-home-mothers and they ALL are younger than i am.
and i babysit sometimes which is fun. and, if i babysit for jeanette, i usually do it in the mornings and i just have to watch jan, who is about 7 months old and as cute as easy to handle.
i do have to write applications (?), though, cause the arbeitsamt makes me. and, of course, i can't stay unemployed forever... although i don't miss working at all. i do the housework and grocery shopping, the laundry, i play with my new nintendo DS, i dwnld hidden-object-games, i read -

and i still have to fix up MY room.

what else?
oh - mozilla killed ALL my favourites with the last update. gosh, thank goodness i'm not on dial-up any more AND that i have plenty of time to search the net, but there were so many pages i just saved to go there later...
*sighs*

oh - and @ 12chen - i didn't forget you - it's just that as an unemployed person you have as much time as as RENTNER - meaning you have no time at all *GG*

*waves*
...I found this...

You Need Some Blue in Your Life

Blue will make you feel calm, intelligent, and confident. And with a little blue, you will project an aura of sincerity and loyalty. If you want wisdom, you've got to get a little blue in your life! For extra punch: Combine blue with brown or green The downside of blue: Blue can make you seem more conservative and reserved than you are The consequences of more blue in your life: You will feel more open to the world around you You will have a broader and richer perspective on life You will be able to find solitude, even in the most hectic times

Yeah, sometimes life just IS like that.

on Pfingsttuesday my boss ordered me into his office, saying that this won't be a very... comfortable... talk.

They are NOT content (?) with my work. Nearly ALL ppl i've been working for seemed to have complained about HOW i work, HOW i get things done etc.

ääähm - that kinda came... out of the blue for me. for i gave the best i could, although i wasn't happy there.

so - we agreed that I would quit for it's better if they say in the zeugnis that 'mrs. e. leaves us in her own free will' and that 'we truly regret her leaving'. that'll cost me three months of unemployment money but it will make things easier when applying for a new job. I stayed until 1st of june. could've worked some weeks longer - but if they tell you they don't like what you do - there's just no point to it. anyways - i finished up all i had started, i even had sort of a farewell party. and i got tons of mails from colleagues saying that they truly regret that i'm leaving. and - some of them said that they don't blame me, for THEY could never do the work that i had done and THEY could never be working for the boss himself.

so - i don't REALLY know what it was that was bothering them. i didn't ask. it wouldn't help for the talk between the boss and me cleary showed me that no matter what i'd have done i couldn't have changed anything. he had already stigmatized me and i think it just wouldn't be worth trying to stay there.

the relieve of not having to go back there still is much, much larger than my anxiety about what'll happen next. I'm quite sure i'll find another job.

after i left there on friday i went straight to belgium on saturday and i spent a whole week with my sister, my nephew and my brand-new niece which was as nice as it was healing for me.
got back last friday.
today i went to the arbeitsamt and although they're not gonna pay anything for the next 3 months the still complained about me not going there within the FIRST THREE DAYS after quitting, no matter if you still work or not. officially i still AM working at that stupid institute, i won't actually be unemployed before next friday...
and although the arbeitsamt has NEVER paid for me in the last 17 years nor did they do ANYTHING to help me find a job, they still can be annoying enough and they still can be not paying anything even a week longer for i was frakking THREE DAYS LATE in going there. better not think about it any more than necessary...

so today after my visit to the arbeitsamt i started some serious shopping for our garden - two rosebushes, a gate for the backyard and i ordered a little shed to put in our lawnmower and stuff.
AND i made an appointment at the hairdresser's, for i haven't had a decent haircut in about one year. and if i have some job-interviews to got to i better look KIND OF decent hairwise ;-)

Long time no update, I know, I know.

My life is... strange at the moment. I guess this describes it best.

On one side there is our living together AND in a house. That's quite okay, in fact I really start feeling at home. We live amongst families and I guess we are the only ones WITHOUT children.
I don't care - if I really had a problem with kids I just wouldn't have moved here.
Living with Uli gets along great, too.
Yeah, I like how I live now. Really do.

The other part is the job. which sucks. big time. REALLY big time. I have to quite alter my personality there. meaning no loud exclamations, no swearing, no eating smelly stuff in the office, that last thing is quite okay, of course.

my two colleagues hardly talk at all when the professor is in. that's veryvery hard for me, for I'm a talkative person.
and - all appreciation I received when working at tui - that's gone, of course.

for example - my sister had another baby on tuesday. i was quite upset not knowing whether or not lisa (that's my new niece) is born already or not. and i went home not knowing anything yet. both of my colleagues knew about it - but NONE of them asked next morning. i mean - it's just... a question of courtesy at least to ask if everything is okay, or if even the baby is there...
other colleagues though DID ask.

guess i'm paying know for years of GREAT colleagues. let esther be as she is - she DID care for her colleagues. btw - she is doing a therapy at the moment fighting her alcoholism. ich habe HOCHACHTUNG vor ihr, if she'll make it.
people who fight their alcoholism (i'm missing the right english words here) have my highest respect. really have.

anyways - i'm starting, of course, to look for a new job and i applied for a job at HRS which is a hotelreservation website. they're looking for a product manager and that job quite sounds like what i have done at tui.
would be just GREAT if it would work out....
maybe some of you could keep their fingers crossed for me...

okay -that'll be about it for today...

Found this over at 12chen's...

*waves*

:)

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We moved!

So now I'm sitting in our new house, surrounded by boxes, amidst chaos. but online.
well - dial up, that is. our DSL won't work till the end of march (hopefully). so it's kinda back to the roots. my notebook made sounds i last heard back in 99. funny. i always wondered why brandnew, state-of-the-art notebooks are still equipped with a 56k-modem - now i know (not that my notebook is state-of-the-art, though). otherwise i would've had a problem. just having found my old 56k-modem in one of the boxes i lack the kabels that i'd need to run it...


the move itself went quite well, the guys were friendly, funny, nice, we laughed a lot.

but - i'm beyond tiredness, i'm beyond aching feet and an aching back, I'm beyond hunger and thirst. didn't eat too much although i provided the moving guys with food, of course.

my sister'll be here this afternoon. it's just about 2 hours from here to belgium, we haven't been this close to each other in years (geographically spoken).


so - my sister's not gonna come, at least not today. for i'm having diarrhea (sp?), am dizzy and s o on. i just slept 3 hours. probably my bodie's way to tell me to finally slow down.
and since my sister's in her third trimester of pregnancy we decided to give it a wait till tomorrow. i ASSUME i'll be better then so she could still come...
we'll see.

So - it's two weeks now that I'm working in Köln and... well...
I changed departments enough times to know that changing is never easy. but this time it's worse for i'm not just changing WITHIN a company, i changed COMPANIES. AND the city. AND the Bundesland, for what it's worth.
Not easy, definately not.
That work is mostly about secretary stuff. So I found myself writing letters that were spoken on a chip, filing away things, copying my arse of - not REALLY exciting yet. And I doubt whether it'll GET more exciting.

Okay, it's a job, I'm not unemployed, that's the main issue - but it definately is not the job I'd be doing for the rest of my life.

und - I'm nowhere at home a.t.m.
we spend the weekends in hannover for we both still have to box up our stuff (and throw out a lot, too), during the week we live on 33 squaremeters. but we got the keys to the house:







and on monday we'll take my car to köln to buy carpeting, paint etc. also we need a new sofa and a new bed. those'll be our jobs for next week - to take care of stuff like that.
the actual moving date will be march 12th/13th - IF i get those days off.

so - life still is spannend... and not very comfy at the moment.

... So - I'm living in boxes and chaos.
The box-problem wrapped up pretty well. There was this colleague of Uli, she wanted to get rid of her boxes, and just now the moving company delivered further boxes.

Tomorrow I'll be starting my new job. I'll be driving to Köln this afternoon.

And - we'll be renting a HOUSE. It's big, really big for two persons, but then, we're both used to living by ourselves meaning we need SPACE when living together. For the next month, though, space is something we WON'T have, for until we move to that house we have to cramp into Ulis small one-bedroom-place...
the actual moving date will be sometime im march.

very exciting, my life at the moment...

So I'm finding excuse after excuse for NOT starting to pack up my belongings.

And finally, an hour ago, I went to the attic to get down some cartons - and, what did I see? NO CARTONS.
Cause I lent them to a colleague. And didn't care to get them back. Or I DID get them back and put them in the basement? Don't know, gotta check tomorrow. no way I'll walk down (AND BACK UP) 4 stories now.


*sighs*

My foot hurts. I do have a foot problem - it's called a 'Fersensporn', meaning there's some bone buidling under the heel. it just happens, no big deal. but it frakkin' hurts. i've got special insoles now that made the problem almost vanish, but today i thought it can't be good to keep sitting on the couch, start moving already! so i did. i walked along the kanal for 25 minutes which is perfect for someone who didn't do ANY sports the last yrs. but now - it HURTS. no fair, not at all.
think i'll start biking instead...

okay. what DID i want to write about? oh yeah, packing.

HOW COME i own things that no one else seems to have? my place is full of things that i don't really need, yet i don't want to throw it out...

I'm starting with 'clear your clutter with feng shui' by karen kingston now. hope this helps...


i think it IS possible to RENT cartons for moving...
found a website that told me i'll need about 22 cartons for books and 37 cartons for the rest (or the other way round) - gaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not gonna buy about 60 cartons, no way...
better start hitting the supermarket for banana cartons, i guess...

nough of this, I'll got to bed now...